Att döda ett barn - en krönika av idrottspoeten Dan Durk

Jag är kritisk till supporterns roll i samhället. Det är poänglöst och mörkt. En sorts evigt krig, motståndarna ska tryckas ned, få vinnare, många förlorare. Förljugna sportjournalister som Niva försöker se en skönhet som inte finns.

När jag flyttade till Skövde från Skara 1995 var det som att min själ gick ifrån mig. Men fotbollen stannade i mig. Vad fan berodde det på? Vad fan berodde det på? Är fotbollen så skitigt själlös?

Jag älskade en gång ett fotbollslag - fråga mig för allt i världen inte vilket - och jag trodde att kärleken till laget var evig. Kanske är den det. Kanske är det kärleken till ett barn? Kanske slutade jag älska mitt barn. Det gör så förbannat ont.

Ingen förberedde mig på sport. Min pappa tog avsides en gång, han sa: Dan - du kommer att älska någon, så sa han, pappa. Han hade inte räknat med sport. När Fiorentina trollband Serie A med Batistuta på topp satt jag hela dagarna på pizzeria Garda i Skara. Jag såg Uno kryss due med folkölen på hand och mitt blödande hjärta dunkande på det hala pizzeriagolvet.

Då drömde jag mig bort med Batistutas hjälp. Men var det kärlek? Nä. Kärleken kom nån gång under sommaren när Allsvenskan fått fotfäste. Och med kärleken kom våldet. Och med våldet hatet och sorgen. Den 15 oktober 1995 åkte jag med ilfart till Skara Lasarett. Självdiagnos: Hjärtesorg. Doktorns diagnos: Hjärtinfarkt.

Jag avslutar med en dikt från min antologi "Den plånte boken". Den heter "Tom Prahl".

I mitt liv har inte mycket gott funnits.

Jag har gestaltat mitt liv. I ett årtionde.

Min mor dog i går. Det var som om det var i dag. I går var det mörkt. I dag är det becksvart.

Det är frivisning på TV8. Halmstad och Tom Prahl. Jag älskar nånstans Halmstad. Jag minns guldhattarna. När fan var det?

Skit i det.

Dan Durk

Comments

generic viagra en

December 9, 2017 by RobertCof (not verified), 18 weeks 6 days ago
Comment: 236736

generic viagra en amazon.com
cheap viagra
order free sample of viagra
viagra pills
is it illegal to sell generic viagra

http://laufsporty.eu/

December 9, 2017 by AnnetteGam (not verified), 18 weeks 6 days ago
Comment: 234277

viagra sales online

December 9, 2017 by MarvinFolit (not verified), 18 weeks 6 days ago
Comment: 233582

viagra sales online australia
viagra online
best way to get an erection without viagra
viagra pills
viagra bad getting pregnant

debt consolidation loan bad

December 9, 2017 by Jybsaminine (not verified), 19 weeks 25 min ago
Comment: 233138

debt consolidation loan bad credit cash advance open online bank account [url=https://payday-loans.us.com/]best payday loans online[/url] ’

free slot games casino

December 9, 2017 by Marthautest (not verified), 19 weeks 52 min ago
Comment: 232597

free slot games
casino game
slot games
slot games

http://buyviagragenmedonline.

December 9, 2017 by Unlogma (not verified), 19 weeks 1 hour ago
Comment: 232197

direct online loans online

December 9, 2017 by Jacobatoni (not verified), 19 weeks 3 hours ago
Comment: 229953

direct online loans
online payday loans no credit check
online payday advances
payday loans no credit check
money right now

cash loans nashville tn loans

December 9, 2017 by DonnieSar (not verified), 19 weeks 3 hours ago
Comment: 229343

cash loans nashville tn
loans for bad credit
how to make some fast cash
no credit check loans
how do i get money fast

jamie reidy memoir hard sell

December 9, 2017 by Donaldtut (not verified), 19 weeks 3 hours ago
Comment: 229125

jamie reidy memoir hard sell the evolution of a viagra salesman.
viagra pills
viagra buy nz
viagra online
viagra de 25 mg funciona

g4 sildenafil 50 mg cheap

December 9, 2017 by Donaldtut (not verified), 19 weeks 3 hours ago
Comment: 229063

g4 sildenafil 50 mg
cheap viagra
viagra wholesale
cheap viagra
viagra naturale pillola rossa

payday loans

December 9, 2017 by Jacobatoni (not verified), 19 weeks 3 hours ago
Comment: 228927

payday loans scarborough
payday loans no credit
cash payday
no credit check loans
personal lenders

sildenafil citrate 25mg

December 9, 2017 by MarvinFolit (not verified), 19 weeks 4 hours ago
Comment: 227831

sildenafil citrate 25mg tablets
buy viagra
sildenafil 100mg gut viagra
buy viagra online
buy generic viagra in canada

http://viagrabuyonlinemedmrx.

December 8, 2017 by Undefly (not verified), 19 weeks 10 hours ago
Comment: 224037

e loans payday loans for bad

December 8, 2017 by Jacobatoni (not verified), 19 weeks 10 hours ago
Comment: 223945

e loans
payday loans for bad credit
what is a microloan
payday loans for bad credit
fast loans with bad credit

how to buy viagra in uk cheap

December 8, 2017 by DeweyFerce (not verified), 19 weeks 11 hours ago
Comment: 223752

how to buy viagra in uk
cheap viagra
safest way to buy viagra
cheap viagra
generamedix co uk generic viagra

short term loan bad

December 8, 2017 by DonnieSar (not verified), 19 weeks 11 hours ago
Comment: 223677

short term loan bad credit
payday loans no credit check
pay day loan
payday loans no credit
banks that give personal loans

immediate cash advance online

December 8, 2017 by Jacobatoni (not verified), 19 weeks 11 hours ago
Comment: 223671

immediate cash advance
online payday loans no credit check
how to get a quick loan with bad credit
loans for bad credit
payday loans in corpus christi

http://wintermode.xyz/ damen

December 8, 2017 by MichaelUnapy (not verified), 19 weeks 13 hours ago
Comment: 222665

http://wintermode.xyz/ damen wintermode Leattecliert, How to buy Klonopin online?

can you buy viagra dubai buy

December 8, 2017 by Jamesses (not verified), 19 weeks 14 hours ago
Comment: 222441

can you buy viagra dubai
buy viagra online
viagra pillen kosten
viagra prices
order viagra online legal

price of original

December 8, 2017 by DeweyFerce (not verified), 19 weeks 14 hours ago
Comment: 222027

price of original viagra
viagra online
order viagra in australia
viagra online
buy viagra online next day delivery uk

http://juergen-r-winkler.de/i

December 8, 2017 by Larrylaf (not verified), 19 weeks 15 hours ago
Comment: 221799

http://juergen-r-winkler.de/index.php?option=com_k2&view=itemlist&task=u... 3 2016 смотреть онлайн смотреть мультфильм онлайн статус http://www.ferromar.com.br/component/k2/itemlist/user/245705

a faxless payday loan

December 8, 2017 by KdbccfKeync (not verified), 19 weeks 15 hours ago
Comment: 221475

a faxless payday loan http://paydayloansonlinenow.us.com/get payday loan online [url=http://paydayloansonlinenow.us.com/]payday loans online[/url]

http://viagrabuyonlinemedmrx.

December 8, 2017 by bruina (not verified), 19 weeks 16 hours ago
Comment: 220625

http://viagrabuyonlinemedmrx.com
viagra commercial asian
viagra online
does blue cross blue shield cover viagra
cheap viagra

buy viagra online to

December 8, 2017 by Rickyemave (not verified), 19 weeks 17 hours ago
Comment: 220076

buy viagra online to canada
viagra online
what will happen when viagra goes generic
viagra online
can you use viagra get pregnant

the best website to buy

December 8, 2017 by Rickyemave (not verified), 19 weeks 17 hours ago
Comment: 220033

the best website to buy viagra and cialis
cheap viagra
viagra 100 mg 4 comprimidos precio
buy viagra online
viagra online blog

viagra sale online buy

December 8, 2017 by Jamesses (not verified), 19 weeks 19 hours ago
Comment: 219514

viagra sale online
buy viagra
sildenafil vorst 50 mg
cheap viagra
where to buy viagra from

free casino games casino

December 8, 2017 by Marthautest (not verified), 19 weeks 20 hours ago
Comment: 219156

free casino games
casino online
real money casino online usa
slot machines

using viagra getting

December 8, 2017 by JeffreyRow (not verified), 19 weeks 23 hours ago
Comment: 218905

using viagra getting pregnant
cheap viagra
viagra buy ireland
buy viagra online
viagra online pharmacy india

order viagra legally viagra

December 8, 2017 by ArmandoTok (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 218691

order viagra legally
viagra online
viagra brain pill
buy viagra online
buy viagra from tesco

viagra online canada

December 8, 2017 by JeffreyRow (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 218545

viagra online canada mastercard
viagra pills
viagra cuanto sale
viagra online
where can i get viagra in singapore

http://medicbox.us/

December 8, 2017 by NancyDak (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 218440

hard sell evolution viagra

December 8, 2017 by Melbanic (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 218436

hard sell evolution viagra salesman summary
generic viagra
good places to buy viagra
viagra online
how do i get some viagra

age can get viagra viagra

December 8, 2017 by Melbanic (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 218337

age can get viagra
viagra without a doctor prescription
venda de generico do viagra
generic viagra
order viagra without rx

viagra shipped overnight

December 8, 2017 by LssdvdRevark (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 218330

viagra shipped overnight http://canadiannowv.com/ mexico viagra [url=http://canadiannowv.com/]buy viagra online[/url]

viagra for sale.ie viagra

December 8, 2017 by AndreWaiva (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 218311

viagra for sale.ie
viagra pills
order viagra paypal
buy viagra
legit website buy viagra

red viagra tablets buy viagra

December 8, 2017 by AndreWaiva (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 218306

red viagra tablets
buy viagra online
how to buy viagra at pharmacy
buy viagra
buy viagra in nairobi

generici viagra cialis

December 7, 2017 by ArmandoTok (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 218209

generici viagra cialis levitra
buy viagra
sildenafil 100mg opinie
buy viagra online
can you get prescription viagra

buy cialis toronto cialis

December 7, 2017 by Roberttal (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 216851

buy cialis toronto
cialis without a doctor's prescription
where to buy cialis pills
cialis on line no pres
cialis cheapest lowest price

cheap genuine cialis cialis

December 7, 2017 by Carlosblish (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 216835

cheap genuine cialis
cialis without a doctor's prescription
buy cialis brand
cialis rezeptfrei
buy viagra cialis uk

payday loans online payday

December 7, 2017 by LouiseVok (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 216648

payday loans online
payday advance
cash loans
pay day loan
online payday loans
cash advance
online loans
payday loans no credit check
payday advance
cash advance loans

can buy cialis canada cialis

December 7, 2017 by Carlosblish (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 215182

can buy cialis canada
cialis rezeptfrei
cialis for sale uk
cialis without a doctor's prescription
can you buy cialis over counter mexico

legal buy generic

December 7, 2017 by TysonGreem (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 215157

legal buy generic cialis
cialis rezeptfrei
buy cialis legally canada
cialis without a doctor's prescription
discount canadian cialis

cialis pills from

December 7, 2017 by TysonGreem (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 215119

cialis pills from canada
cialis without doctor
how do i buy cialis
cialis without doctor
cialis color of pills

can viagra cialis taken

December 7, 2017 by BerthaSlert (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 214939

can viagra cialis taken together
viagra without a doctor prescription
viagra generika aus der apotheke
viagra online
levitra 20mg vs. viagra 100mg

nomes dos generico do

December 7, 2017 by BerthaSlert (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 214603

nomes dos generico do viagra
generic viagra 100mg
buy viagra online nz
viagra without a doctor prescription
buy viagra hawaii

how to split pills

December 7, 2017 by Roberttal (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 214564

how to split pills cialis
cialis without a doctor's prescription
buy cialis from europe
cialis without doctor
cialis for sale in usa

viagra pfizer online

December 7, 2017 by Lmrchubre (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 214226

viagra pfizer online http://cialisenax.com/ brand name viagra cheap cialis viagra soft gel tabs [url=http://cialisenax.com/]natural cialis[/url]

http://www.gastro-24.ch/index

December 7, 2017 by Larrylaf (not verified), 19 weeks 1 day ago
Comment: 214069

http://larbo.us/ Febuittext,

December 7, 2017 by CurtisRoach (not verified), 19 weeks 2 days ago
Comment: 213973

cialis buy australia cialis

December 7, 2017 by LouisDearm (not verified), 19 weeks 2 days ago
Comment: 213911

cialis buy australia
cialis without doctor
where to buy cialis pills
cialis without doctor
cheapest canadian cialis

Tweets

Aktuella resultat